The Lost Sheep

About Me

Hello traveler, 

To begin with, you should know a little about me. It’s always good to know who you plan to travel with. First I’m an adult. I think that’s important, I’m not a child with no understanding or lacking in experience. I’ve struggled, lived on my own, paid bills, failed and got back up again. The second thing is I’m a seventh day adventist and have been so all my life. I was born and raised in the church under my mother and great grandmother. I was raised to study and listen and learn and I think this is even more important than the first point because you may then be saying, 

“Oh? Then you know a lot.”

I’d like to think I do actually. I have always been a good listener and even more so have studied the bible on my own. I’ve taught sabbath schools and AY programs, lead studies and the like. So then you may be asking, 

“Wait? Then why the lost sheep?”

That’s where humility comes in. For as much as I’ve learned and grown to learn I still feel lost sometimes. I still wonder what it is that God wants for me, or why I have to struggle through life even when I’m faithful. I, like others, hate sorrow and injustice and when I have weeks where my prayers feel quiet and the world seems against me and others are striving and wars are raging and the sick are dying I wonder why? How? What am I missing? No matter how much I think I know , sometimes I feel lost, like I’m wandering in the dark unsure of where I’m supposed to go. 

But you know that’s actually a funny place to be. Because no one wants to stay lost. When you get lost you aren’t looking to get lost harder, you are looking for the path out, the exit, how to be found. When you realize you’re lost, that’s when you truly start looking for the way home. 

This blog isn’t me bragging about my knowledge or history. In fact it’s a vulnerable place where I admit that I don’t know everything and that I’m trying to find the answers just like everyone else. Jesus tells an interesting parable when the pharisees judge him for being and eating with sinners, 

“Then Jesus told them this parable: “Suppose one of you has a hundred sheep and loses one of them. Doesn’t he leave the ninety-nine in the open country and go after the lost sheep until he finds it? And when he finds it, he joyfully puts it on his shoulders and goes home. Then he calls his friends and neighbors together and says, ‘Rejoice with me; I have found my lost sheep.’ I tell you that in the same way there will be more rejoicing in heaven over one sinner who repents than over ninety-nine righteous persons who do not need to repent.” (Luke 15:3-7 NIV)

When I’m lost I don’t have to depend on just myself to find my way home. Like a sheep, I sometimes feel ignorant and silly walking around in circles. But the hope that I have is that when I am lost that Jesus is still willing to come after me and look for me. He’ll lift me up, carry me on his shoulders and bring me home when I have no more strength to do so. And when we get home he is so happy, he brags about it and throws a party for me; a singular lost sheep. 

So If you’re curious and a traveler lost like a silly sheep like me then join me. Follow this strange, eclectic journey of prayers, studies and experiences as I try to find my way into the arms of Jesus knowing that they are open and waiting. 

Yours truly, 

The Lost Sheep